Slump.

Bah. Not much writing either Sunday morning or evening after sleep and a run to Whole Foods. I helped Henri get past his own mental roadblocks for his NSF grant essay, but remained firmly ensconced behind my own. C'est la vie.

I am going to go nap.

Later.

-Me.

Mostly awake..

I've been pacing around all day, agitated and unfocused. I don't know when this country went batshit loco, but I missed a meeting or something. What kills me the most is that struggling and fighting for peace gets equated with weakness by these bloodthirsty war-mongering bastards. The last time I checked, it was a sign of weakness to resort to violence over compassion. Doing the work of peace takes real strength, and a deep commitment to a core value that the right-wing culture of hatred and bigotry seems to have abandoned while still parading their so-called Christian values in front of a world increasingly disgusted by their hypocrisy: The idea that one should love one's neighbor as oneself, and that we should treat one another the way we seek to be treated, with love and kindness. When did these people stop reading the Gospel they preach? You know, the bits that remind us that the whole of the law is LOVE. Not loving only other white wealthy Christians, but EVERYONE of all races, faiths, backgrounds and experience. These people spit on the good work of Christ and they are not what they claim they are. This makes me very angry. I try very hard to remain open to dialogue, but I'm putting my foot down on this one. I left the church behind years ago, seeing then this frightening turn towards selfishness in the mainstream christian culture, and I was so disgusted by it that I could no longer call myself a Christian. I did maintain my commitment to the core aspects of my faith, however, and as a pagan, I have met more kind and open-hearted people willing to accept new people with welcoming arms and no judgmental pronouncements than I have ever encountered in any church. Why? Those who profess to follow Christ and instead spread evil in his name are guilty of a deeper sin than I know how to categorize, and it hurts. I want so badly for this country to heal itself from these pointless divisions. We have been skillfully manipulated by fear and corrupt leaders into tearing ourselves apart, and in the name of what? Money?

I can't write in the face of this, can barely deal with reality. It just doesn't make any sense to me at all. I know that many people believe that they are doing what is right, but if they do not see the deeper consequences of their actions, then they might as well be perpetrating evil deliberately.

When will we stand up for what is right? When will freedom and justice be more important than war and the destruction of the environment for profit? When will we stop allowing people to attempt to legislate their own twisted version of morality? When will everyone in this country respect, cherish and love one another?

I'm done for now. Maybe I'll watch a movie or spin or nap, but no more time on the computer for a few hours. I'm just too angry right now.

Later.

-Me.