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Off to sleep.... eventually.
Jul. 6th, 2006 01:56 amCame back down to Noho tonight anyway, to be reminded by the universe just how good J is at helping me ground out overwhelming emotional turmoil. You rock.
I still feel like crying, it's just a much less demanding, hit-me-over-the-head kind of feeling now, and it means I will probably be able to sleep reasonably soon, which is awesome.
Note to self: You do not have to make everyone around you happy all the time. You also do not have to take on anyone else's damage. Period.
Now, we'll see if I can manage to listen to myself for once.
Last day. At least this one doesn't involve gunmen coming to hunt me down, or a Carousel. I'm not old enough for that quite yet. Just the moving onward from a community I love, and a job that's been the only stable thing in my world for the past 4 years running. This is a lot harder than I expected it to be, honestly.
I'm really amazingly grateful for the help that friends and family and beloveds have been offering me, and all the kind words of encouragement really do add up. I'd have totally lost it already if not for the support and understanding of everyone around me, and I am grateful that you put up with my erratic moods, occasional withdrawals from the world, and generally random, unpredictable life.
Thursday morning draws nigh, whether I like it or not.. better go sleep.
Later.
-Me.
I still feel like crying, it's just a much less demanding, hit-me-over-the-head kind of feeling now, and it means I will probably be able to sleep reasonably soon, which is awesome.
Note to self: You do not have to make everyone around you happy all the time. You also do not have to take on anyone else's damage. Period.
Now, we'll see if I can manage to listen to myself for once.
Last day. At least this one doesn't involve gunmen coming to hunt me down, or a Carousel. I'm not old enough for that quite yet. Just the moving onward from a community I love, and a job that's been the only stable thing in my world for the past 4 years running. This is a lot harder than I expected it to be, honestly.
I'm really amazingly grateful for the help that friends and family and beloveds have been offering me, and all the kind words of encouragement really do add up. I'd have totally lost it already if not for the support and understanding of everyone around me, and I am grateful that you put up with my erratic moods, occasional withdrawals from the world, and generally random, unpredictable life.
Thursday morning draws nigh, whether I like it or not.. better go sleep.
Later.
-Me.
