artemis42 | Another day I should have just slept through..

Got ticketed on the way to work this morning, one I'm likely to fight due to its sheer bogusness, but it was yet another mild disaster to deal with in a week of ups and downs, and I'm so very tired of the stress. Tears leaking out of me off and on all day at work, and a difficult conversation this evening have left me feeling a bit like a wrung-out hand towel. With sore eyes.

I'm certainly doing much better now, having hashed out a bunch of stuff and come back around to a snuggly place again, but I'm tired as hell, and I'm off to bed in a minute. I remain grateful that my beloveds understand my particular flavor of crazy enough to put up with my erratic schedule and fluctuating moods. I know I can be a pain, but we all have our idiosyncrasies, and putting up with each other could always be elevated to an art form.
Where there is gratefulness, there is no room for anger.

Wednesday looks like it should be low-key, and I'll get to hang out with Sam on Thursday evening, then I just have to get through the deli shift on Friday night. I'll be in Cambridge on Saturday, then back in VT to work on Sunday.

Later.

-Me.

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A Mistake

I'm gonna make a mistake
I'm gonna do it on purpose
I'm gonna waste my time

'Cause I'm full as a tick
And I'm scratching at the surface
And what I find is mine

And when the day is done, and I look back
And the fact is I had fun, fumbling around
All the advice I shunned, and I ran
Where they told me not to run, but I sure had fun, so

I'm gonna fuck it up again
I'm gonna do another detour
Unpave my path

And if you wanna make sense
What you looking at me for
I'm no good at math

And when I find my way back
The fact is I just may stay, or I may not
I've acquired quite a taste for a well-made mistake
I wanna make a mistake
Why can't I make a mistake?

I'm always doing what I think I should
Almost always doing everybody good
Why

Do I wanna do right, of course but
Do I really wanna feel I'm forced to
Answer you, hell no
I've acquired quite a taste for a well-made mistake,
I wanna make a mistake
Why can't I make a mistake

I'm always doing what I think I should
Almost always doing everybody good
Why

-Fiona Apple